Stop hating yourself. Try going one day without saying anything bad about yourself. Try complimenting yourself. Do it again. Buy yourself dinner. Put soft things against your skin. Listen to your favorite songs. Eat ice cream. Eat ice cream naked. You have to spend the rest of your life with you. You’re all you’ve got. Be kind, start loving yourself.
You are fighting so hard and I am so so proud of you. I know you’re tired, but please don’t give up. I have so much faith in you. Like countless times before this, you can and will do this.